I'm Really Respect and Accept You The Way You Are

Assalamaualaikum w.b.t

The reason between ur choice,

The deepest one is only u and Allah know,

U can only show the 'appearance' reason to others,

And just keep calm and smile, 

How much they try to dig 'the deepest fake' reason from the 'appearance' reason u give them. 

As long as u not cross the border of Allah, 

U just see how they react and just respect their principle,

Without 'killing' your own principle.

This was the facebook status that I made last Sunday while I'm waiting my sister who were having the symposium about asthma of paediatrics. 

Why?

Because I'm not blaming him about what he said, but he also need to remember, everybody have their own principle, not only him. I also has my own principle, and why I need just to listen to his principle?

In my life, my principle had built through my own journey of life. What is the best for me and others.

In his life, the best deeds that he give to others, he believe Allah will give back to him in a great compliments.

I agreed with his principle, I respect his principle, but not meaning that, I'm gonna change my own principle.

My principle: As long I help myself, the good deeds to others will come along. Not meaning that I'm gonna to drop off all the good deeds to others, but in the situation, I need to choose. Which one is the best to me and also others. I'm believe with all the hardwork because Allah, no matter in academics or curriculum, if not crossing the border of syariatullah and sunnatullah, Allah will like it.

As the Prof Muhaya said: "Orang yang tiada apa-apa, tidak akan mampu memberi."

Allah give us the choice. And it's all depends on us how to choose it. I'm not doing the good deeds to get back what I'm losing, but I'm doing the good deeds because Allah like it. No matter anywhere or anytime He want to pay back to me, I'm not waiting for it. Because I know, I'm only His slave. A slave not asking for gift/pay from what he/she did, the slave only accept what his/her Employers give. 

Allah are not torturing me, that's the thing that I'm always try to remember to myself. Everything that happens in my life, I'm trying to take a deep breath, trying to calm, and thinking of positive side. 

How much the others not agreed with me, it is not really matter to me. The one that always make me crying is, when I'm feeling Allah don't like the way I'm acting/doing something. That's really borders me a lot.

To him, I know he try to give an advice to me. Thanks a lot. But, people always said: Men from Mars, Women from Venus. 

I'm not really sensitive person. I'm trying to be positive and sensitive about others feeling. Although I know you also want to take care my feeling, but the way you react, the way you message, is really not persuading me that you are advising me, but you are forcing me to take your principle.

However, thanks. That's all I can tell. Showing to me, you are really take care of me although the way is really not suited with me.

#It just feeling weird when the best friend keep silent without having conversation together.

#It just feeling awkward, when I just feeling only want to keep silent. And just about work, trying to be professional, only because of that, I'm starting to speak with you.

#It seemed weird when trying to go back to last moments, when we are still discussing and sharing our problem.

But, because of our own principle, we are kept silent to each other. And I'm just follow the way you want. 

Just... an advice to you: you can expressed your own principle, but you cannot forcing others to follow yours. Respect others' principle as long as their principle not cross Allah and Islam border.

#May Allah bless. "Saying: I'm really respect and accept you the way you are. Thanks a lot, pal" 

 

The Sin Come again

Ku tak pantas di surga

Namun ku takut pada neraka

Aku hanya manusia penuh dosa

Tuntunlah dan bimbinglah

Di jalan ridhoMu

Beri aku kesempatan

Tuk menjadi yang lebih baik

Andaikan saja waktu

Dapat ku putar kembali

Aku ingin di dekatMu

Assalamualaikum w.b.t 

It just, when you are doing the same sin, it's been in the darkness forever ='(

The previous sin, I did it again.. Allahu Rabbi~ It's hard to take care the heart if the iman we does not take care it.

I want to stop that sin, Allah. Please help me. Please give the strength to me so that I am able to avoid from that sin. Please Allah~

Tidak ada paksaan dalam agama-Ku

Aku memberikan pilihan buat hamba-Ku

Disebabkan itu

Aku menciptakan manusia sebagai makhluk terbaik-Ku

Namun

Hanya sedikit dari hamba-Ku yang bersyukur

Sungguh ramai yang hanyut tidak mahu kembali kepada-Ku

Betapa susah apabila diri tidak berada dalam persekitaran saling mengingati. Hati tidak tenang. Minda terawang. Akhirnya, tidak memberi apa-apa manfaat kepada diri dan agama. Maka, berlonjak gembiralah syaitan durjana. Berjaya melalaikan seorang manusia, makhluk terbaik-Nya

Mengapa diri? Mengapa begini?
Dosa yang dulu, kau tagih kembali

Azam yang dulu yang mahu kau laksanakan

Akhirnya pudar dimamah masa

Dan dirimu jua yang rugi

Bina kembali, ingati kembali dirimu yang lupa

Rahmat Allah masih terbuka luas

Jangan dibiarkan dirimu dalam murka-Nya

Akhirnya menyesal tertimpa

Kerna tertangguh taubatnya

Untuk kembali pada-Nya

Kembali kepadanya selagi masih bernyawa, selagi diberi masa oleh-Nya. Keep going and moving to the right path.

 

       

Result: Fail vs 'A'

Bismillah... Assalamualaikum w.b.t

Mendapat keputusan mid sem exam hari itu, memang disangka-sangka oleh aku yang tak berapa rajin dalam study ni...hu3.. tapi alhamdulillah, moga ia memberi impak yg baik buat hidupku...

Namun, aku menilai diri aku...
saat mendapat keputusan yang kurang memuaskan
dengan saat mendapat keputusan yang menggembirakan
impaknya berbeza bagi diriku
Dan aku... tidak tahu mengapa

Aku masih ingin perasaan gembira belajar sesuatu pelajaran itu
Tapi rasa itu hanya aku rasa selepas keputusan exam final sem 1 hari itu
Aku tak tahu kenapa
Mungkin kerana perasaan pasrah yang aku ada
perasaan berserah segalanya kepada Allah di samping berusaha

Namun, selepas mendapat result yg baik
Rasa belajar itu hilang
Hilang dibawa bayu yang jauh dari aku hingga kehilangan
Aku rindukan rasa itu
Rasa yang sentiasa ingin belajar
Kerana aku sedar aku banyak yg tidak tahu

Allah, aku ingin ikhlas belajar kerana-Mu
Aku ingin gembira mencintai ilmu yang aku pelajari
Hadirkan perasaan cinta itu buatku
Agar aku tidak hanyut dibawa oleh cinta dunia
Yang sedikit-sedikit melalaikan diriku
Tanpa aku sedari atau sedari
Tanpa aku tahu untuk menolaknya

Dan aku takut akan pada waktu lalainya aku itu
Engkau menarik nyawaku
Lalu mencampakkan daku ke neraka-Mu

Jauhkanlah daku dari neraka-Mu~